Phuket Day 2

Wake up in the early morning and having our breakfast at the hotel.
We need to rush for the shuttle at 9:30am phuket time to go to the center of Patong Beach.
Well, get ready for all and waited for the shuttle..
We asked the driver to stop us at Jungceylon shopping mall.

When you're here, you're realise the lifestyle here is a bit slow.
Unlike KL is super duper rush. By 10am phuket time, you still seldom can find any shoplet in shopping mall is open yet.
They are start operating at 11am Phuket time where our times is already noon time..lolz
we hang around at the Rha-that-ui road ...nth much to see as there are popular for the night light.
Whole road is bout pub and club..=.=..
early morning exercise there...sweating and the mall yet to open =.=
at last, we both decided to take a seat at StarBuck while waiting the mall to be open..hahaha..
one funny thing, if you wan to use wifi at starbuck here, it is not free...
counted by hours..you need to pay..

wait n wait n wait...ah finally...
Mall is open...
is quite a large mall here, but nth much to see..hahaha
at the other side of the mall is all bout restaurant and cafe..
but the view is nice inside..
there's a big sale on the mall . so hanging around to see...
the electronic here is so damn cheap..with less than rm900, you can own a dslr here dy.
since is already noon time at our time, supposingly to go for lunch first but due to the lousy of our body, we're both exhausted and too tired to eat.
So we hunt for a massage for our leg...
tada..here we come at Montra Thai massage..
i choose 30 mins foot massage and medicure..
hun's choose for 1 hour foot massage..
price...is cheap... 200baht for medicure, 250baht for 1 hour foot massage and 180baht for 30mins foot massage.
foot massage is nice for a tired leg than walk so much...haha
enjoying our time at montra thai massage, kinda relax...
one thing in this mall is their facial oso cheap, 299baht-320baht...and its surely full of ppl...
but i'm not that like facial so i didnt go for it..
after massage, time to fill in stomache..once you come out from the massage, its the foodcourt dy..
hahaha...everything in this foodcourt you need to pay with cash card..
the so called cash card~ its actually a preloaded money card , you can reload any amount you want, extra will be return..
what we order...dono what mee is this but very nice ..cost 120baht..=.=
Mango rice 70baht...
nth much to do here after eating, so we thinking to head back to hotel take a rest and come out again at night.
before we take the tuk tuk, we saw this..queuing up so long...
oso dono what this called..but its really nice...we dabau and put everything in..hahah..since we dono how they mix it oso so we mixed all..:p

There the bad things happen when we reach hotel...
stupid hotel has no aircon again! its again in the super duper hot weather at 4pm sthg..
was plan to have a good rest before the night life start but~~~
sigh...
called the front desk and the technician come saying the aircon has ice due to too cold and need wait the ice to melt then ok dy...
hello..its your prob giving such stupid aircon and now u expect me to stay in the hot room with both of us sweating like hell to wait for the ice to melt?!
i'm paying for it lo...you should fix for us...we were not on the aircon ever since early morning 7am when we woke up. its more than 6 hours there and u said need wait 1 hours for it to melt..
do you think it will melt for 1 hours later? 6 hours oso its not melt lo..somemore the aircon is off since morning!

I cant bear with the hot weather and needless to say my hun..
he went and look for the frontdesk and get the manager to settle the prob..
the manager is a russian...funny thing, there is no room left in the hotel, unable to change..
no wonder la so good to upgrade to lousy executive room..=.=
don k..there is no reason to keep us in there for more than 1 hour without aircon...its hot!
so another deal, upgrade us to another branch Bamboo club for deluxe room without any charge.
of coz we accept the deal, and change asap.
can bear with the hot weather somemore in the hot room..

Bamboo club is another branch hotel which is more classy and expensive.
of coz the view and environment is much more nicer..
the room is unique too...looks like a villa from outside view..hehe..
ok great, first thing go in the room, on aircon, take bath and rest..
see wasted another half day due to the stupid hotel again!

Night comes and we're so excited to watch the aqua show ~ Simon Caberet!
woo hoo! i so like the stage show...when you look at the aqua, there are really prettier than the real woman..gosh!
too bad no photos allowed ...
but after the show they are queing up outside for photo shooting...
my bad camera keep shaking when trying to snap their pics..
ugh..crowded like hell and those ppl doesnt care u at all keep pushing pushing~
u can take pic with the aqua with a tips for 40baht per aqua per person.
haha...clever right, earning extra money..
after the show its already ard 1030pm...we head back to hotel and call it off the day..

Phuket Day 1

After a long work, ts time to have a short gateway...
We chosen Phuket as our trip for our anniversary as well.
Although i don like Air Asia, but since the voucher was given by Air Asia, so we used it to book our very first trip to Phuket to celebrate our anniversary. hehehe...

Anyway, the first two days wasnt that good for us due to the stupid hotel.
As usual, we will find the hotel that have good review to book, to ensure we have a pleasant trip ma.
So we booked Bamboo beach hotel and Spa. It is a boutique hotel.
Well, while we reach, everything seems good and fine, untill we checked in.
The receptionist said they have upgraded our room to executive room while we booked the deluxe room.
Oh well , watever... the room is so damn big and somehow is too big for just both of us.
Once i step in , i don really have good feeling and don really feel comfortable.
So guess what, yea the aircon is not working at all!
We been in room to rest and the aircon has been switch on for 3 hours yet the room is still warm and both of us were sweating like hell!
Ok, called the front desk to check, then they get the technician which arrive only after 40 minutes! again sweating like bathing!
Then he go and check, OMG, the aircon has no gas ady, thats y so hot!
what the hell, dont they suppose to check everything before letting customer in?!
wasted my first half day coz of the aircon, fine! after fixed the aircon, finally there is some coolness feel in the room~
There goes my half day already... we were both super tired and the weather is extremely hot in Phuket.
So we take a rest in hotel and ordered a room service to fill in our stomache before we go out at night.
Too tired until no energy to eat so we order one set only, pineapple fried rice.
No doubt the fried rice is quite nice, of coz la..cost 200baht, u say nice or not? lolz...

The time in phuket is one hour later than Malaysia time, but the weather there is exactly same with Malaysia time. Its already all dark during 7pm Phuket time.

So, we get prepared and waited the free shuttle tuk tuk from hotel to the Ocean Plaza at Patong Beach. the so called tuk tuk is actually the modified version of the four wheel car at malaysia.
Or some others is the small lorry like that. They modified it so can become a taxi to fetch ppl at the back side. haha.. FYI, there is the flat rate for all tuk tuk, within Patong beach no matter where you want to go at Patong, it is 200baht. =.=

Ok, so there is ony 1 shuttle and we need to packed and squeezed together in the tuk tuk..=.=
Well, it tooks around 20 minutes drive to the Ocean Plaza. Once reached, first thing is to fill our stomache first.

We walk and walk to find some food and finally we walked into a soi and found Orkid restaurant.
Seems like not bad and this restaurant got some reviews. There are quite many customers there..
oh well.,don care much as we r so dmn hungry dy. went in sit down and order.
We order tom yum kung, green curry chicken, butter squil and 2 lemon juice and lemon shake.
This meal caused us 570 baht, to say nice, nah! not really nice. Bad night for our first day, in the midst we having our dinner, theres come the heavy rain..=.= shit we don have umbrella,so?
sit to wait the rain stop...

once the rain stop, we walk back to the same old plaza and buy some snack back to hotel, just in case hungry at midnight ..
the grocery here are super cheap la...haha...many cute snack and drinks..
for the small bottle of dove hair shampoo only 20bath..lolz...where to get this price in M'sia?? XD

so after finish buying, we go a short walk since still got 1 hour for the shuttle back to fetch us.
By the time we reach hotel, its already 1am...so there's gone our 1st day, wasted due to the hotel n the weather..=.=

Watever

its been 2 months plus since my last post..
have been really really busy all this while..
so long time did not up here for blog.
Working life is super diff with Uni lifes..
Uni lifes just too much time until dono how to spent .
everyday gaming, blogging, dreaming..
working life, time is totally not enuf and i need time time time !

and i need vacation also!

oh well...August is quite a memorable month for me..
my dear dear bday we went for Tiger & Huang concert at genting arena of stars..

After one month, we went to Jeff Zhang concert. we bought the ticket with 30% discount for GPWP promotion. super duper worth the money ..

~I'm tired~

As title..i'm tired..
Feel like hmm..what i'm fighting for..
I've been miss out many of the fren's outing/gathering quite some times..
reason why? becoz of work...
Not tat i really love to work..but just an environment need and force..
i found out no matter how much I earn, it will never been enough.
Of coz, ppl will ask how come not enough, save a bit sure enough la..
yea yea..i know that...but for a whole family, my salary is just so little to cover..
i've work on my best my hard to earn more extra but yet still its not enough..
I'm tired inside out..I'm envy see everyone can spend watever they want with their earning.
But i cant touch all my savings at all..i need to keep all the savings for cover my family.
cut off my rental,utilities and car, i really have not much left..somemore ptptn loan ..haiz..
How good if i can have magic to pop up some money..
I'm not the eldest but my job is the some others eldest suppose to do..
instead of me~ i'm not understand sometimes why it is me the one carry all the burden.
Anything happen, i'm the first in contact.
I really wish my home eldest one can get a real job as soon as she could.
Help to cut down my burden, help me to share my burdern but NOT to increase my burden.
1 feeding 4 is very hard for me please! i'm really tired..i wish i can sit like home as you.
not to work without day and night...
I really dono where can i get such amount of money to support, my salary is limit every month..
If she could think, then i'll be easier..perhaps nope...
Sometimes people say, experience makes ppl grows but why incident pull someone down till so terrible?
Is that an excuse for life to enjoy..no! it should not!
Please god, help me to wake this gal up..to think of her family...
if she not change, then i'll be the one in last go to the end coz of forces.
I seriously need a rest and not to work extra and extra to cover you all and neglect myself.

Kuching Here I'm Back

Cant wait Tuesday to come!
I missed home so so much than u can ever think!
Its been a long time i din step in Kuching dy.
busy work work work and work !
Now i'm so excited!
Counting Down 2 Days~ I'm Back to KUCHING!
THEN,
ENJOY MY
HOME SWEET HOME!

~Life update~

was kinda busy recently..
and falling sick easily.
Mayb was due to my body time was still not adopt with the timing yet.
Shifting between makes my body sickening...hahaha
well..nothing much on this month.
Went back to Ipoh with hun .
I enjoyed the trip so so much.
Its really unwind me and relax my mind.
See my hun crazy playing with the Pug..
like a little boy, just as cute as oways.:p
Frankly speaking, night shift really tiring ,
as the time is totally mess up.
My body clock cant even recognize the time to eat, rest, play.
Oh well~~
So fast is ady the 3rd month for 2011.
Natural disaster was everywhere now.
Scary..
Japan were just attacked by the earthquake a week before.
Praying hard for a peaceful world.
We shud feel glad as we are in Malaysia.
I'm awaiting for the next trip again.
me n hun really need a vacation and rest.
Our health condition are down everyday..
tats too bad~

I'm so extremely tired...
Feel like SCREAMING !!!
CAN I?
I wish to go for a vacation ..
to unwind myself from the hassle bustle life...
Any places i can go?
Colmar Tropicale?
or
Hatyai?
I'm so so so need a vacation..
Give me a way that i can relax myself from the busy life..

~随写【现实】~

人生本是充满无奈。。
无奈的当儿你会看见所谓的社会现实~
有时不由得你不信，活在世上就是这么的现实。
当人们欢庆佳节时，有些人可以很快乐的过自己的佳节但就是见不得别人好。。
所谓的妒忌心~眼红~
这就是人的品行。

人们常说妒忌心害死人，
千真万确！
相信每个人都有自己的故事。
每个人都遭遇过不一样的对待。
社会故事我就真的见识到什么叫做现实！

“人”本是不该太计较但事实未必如此。
尤其在成家立业后，当然这也是见仁见智。
见不得人家好就像查家世背景一样问东问西，
好像只有他可以过得好，我家就不行。。
你他！@#￥%的！
见不得我家人可以享福是吗？
我老爸老妈养育我这么多年，
我有能力后当然是让他们享福。。

真是不懂为什么有人就是眼红不过人家好？！
竟然每一样算到足！
新年封红包给未婚亲朋戚友是为讨个吉利。
并非当做区别之分。。
人家说只要一天没结婚就会有机会拿红包，结婚后就给红包代表吉利。
我还是第一次听到做工后就不可以拿红包，难不成还指望我给红包！
还真是好笑！谁告诉你做工就不需要红包了？！
我还没结婚咯！要我给什么屁红包？
我给我老爸老妈小弟都还轮不到你们！
真是最荒唐的事！
这世上真是无奇不有，我努力奋斗到今天的成就是自己争取的，
要分享当然也是和我家人分享，我不是大富大贵，
我也还没过25,竟然给我理由说会赚钱了嘛！
这是什么道理？赚钱就得给你钱吗？你睡醒了没？！

只要老娘我在的一天，你有本事就和我来讨！
看我怎么对付你，别以为我我家人好欺负！
为什么有些人就是这么现实，尤其是那些三姑六婆。。。
关你X事啊？！人家家事你也要管！真是8到！
就是有你们这些三姑六婆搞到我家无宁日！

你们就只会在有好处时来捞一笔，
人在高处时就当神拜，人坠落谷底时就当草踩！
你们是人不是人？！岂有此理！！！！
最好给我看着！有本事惹到我我就让你好看！
你们子女有本事也可以让你们享福，不需要来眼红我家人~
自己教不好就莫怨天尤人！

这就是现实！

~Brand New Start 【新的开始】~

It's 2011!!!!
Brand new year new start for me...huh~
it's a month since my last post...
well...was a bit busy last month and life was crapping up ,so no much time to drop some words here..
lots of thing happens in last month...the last month before 2010 end...
I break my own record...changing 3 company in one month time..
Its crazy rite?hehe..no choice...i choose the working environment instead of $...
Lets recall wats happen in previous month...
Get my life partner, get a new job, getting my own car...
wow...
what a challenging lifestyle i have...
It's my first time i loan a brand new car myself without any support from my family...
i like the car very much...of coz wif my working life of 6 month doesnt brought me to a luxury car.
But i got myself a Saga BLM...consider very very good for me dy...
Its quite comfortable though...can compare with those imported car dy actually...
well, at least for me it is...kekeke...
What else? ok i gaining lots of weight as i have tried and enjoy lots of nice food that i never tried before..Thanks to bernie for bringing me to those place and enjoy lots of nice food...:P

Too bad, i lost my hp too during a movie in midvalley...clumsy me drop my hp in the cinema and only realise it when i reached home.
Cry...wuhuhuhu~~That was my favourite phone from my mommy....sigh...
Also, thanks to bernie for buying me the new android phone...
i don like too expensive phone , so i choose samsung galaxy 5 which is a budget android phone..
i used to call those smart phone a stupid phone coz i don really know how to use it...
Still learning how to use it now...
wakaka...

I've been treat like a princess for the whole month...once i say i don wan work..my hunny wont let me go work dy...let me become a piggie at home..
never felt such happiness before...no need me to cook, do homestuff at all...
wat he want me to do just sleep n eat n enjoy..=.='''

Okay...my career...my contract with Dell was ended on Nov 2010. So need to get a new job as the account is discontinuance of business operation.
Too bad huh...but wat to do..contract doesnt give u a warranty...
so hunting for new job but i don really wish to continue my career as a service desk..
As wat my mum said, u spent a lot to graduate from security, the shoudnt u go for a security job?
well that true oso..but outside security company wont hire fresh grad as security analyst...
what i need is a chance!
oh well...i accept DXX as graduate trainee while still waiting the interview result from Dell.
GT in DXX wasnt really that good , perhaps not much thing to learn as i guess what i learn in Dell before in much more than what they do in DXX..i was like...urgh...wasting my time n brain for sitting there dreaming only...
Crap....no freedom at all...this gonna kill me off....yet...its a shared desk environment whereby don have own cubicle for work...what the !@$%^..

I was thinking how am i going to continue my lifestyle like this for 18 months??
Its definitely turning my into dull...
however, there's something brighten me up in the time..
i got call from Dell greeting that i've been offered a permanent role as Security Analyst ...
Thanks much to the hiring manager giving me the chance ..
it's a very happy news and i called my hunny informing him at the first time...
wow...its like present dropping from sky...such happy that i no need work as SD anymore + it s no more contract job...

Perhaps, for all this thing to happen, hunny really helps me a lots ...
help me modify my resume, help me get this and that, drive me here and there, accepting my bad temper...
it's a crazy month of 2010...
For all the things happen, i would replied with a thanks...
Thanks to all who help me in my life...


again...

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011!!!

~【分享】拥抱~

很喜欢拥抱，喜欢与心爱的人深情相拥的感觉，什么也不说，什么也不做，就只是静静地拥抱，久久不要分开，似乎只有这样，才能体会与心爱的人真正溶为一体的真实感。在那一刻，相信时间也会为我们停止的……

好想,累的时候抱抱你!　　­一直以来都觉得，拥抱，较之亲吻更加真实、温馨，那个可以让你依靠的胸膛一定是很温暖的，肩膀也一定很坚实。不然为什么大家在伤心哭泣的时候，总想找个肩膀来依靠呢，我想，其实更多地是想要一个拥抱吧。­拥抱的时候，内心会溢满一种叫甜蜜的情愫，拥抱的感觉是真实和安全的，因为拥抱是有温度的，拥抱是有声音的……

　　­拥抱的含义有很多：
　　­情侣间的拥抱，是幸福甜蜜的；
　　­夫妻间的拥抱，是宽容理解的；
　　­朋友间的拥抱，是贴心信任的；
　　­吵架后的拥抱，代表妥协与原谅；
　　­相逢后的拥抱，代表思念与激动；
　　­离别前的拥抱，代表不舍与期待……

　　­拥抱，是无声的语言，拥抱，是最简单的接受与认可……
　　­拥抱的时候，彼此是被需要的，被别人需要是时候，是一个人最有价值的时候……

　　­曾经在篇文章上看到一段话：
　　当一个女人从背后抱着你的时候，请一定别再挪动脚步，而请转过身，紧紧抱着自己的女人。
　　因为，当一个女人愿意从背后深情抱着你的时候，代表着她把自己的身心都交给了你，那拥抱里，有着太多太多的爱……
　　­当一个男人从背后拥抱着自己的女人，两人的感觉是温馨和甜蜜的；当一个女人从背后拥抱着自己的男人，女人是无声的祈求，而男人是心的复归和宁静……

~不为人知的寂寞~

1.独自在街道上游荡，看着街道上熙熙攘攘的人群，那些欢笑着的脸孔，那些都是不属于你的,你只是一个过客，什么也带不走，什么也留不下 ,再怎样的热闹，再怎样的繁华，却越发衬托你的形单影只 ,在人群中，你默然抬起头，却找不到一张熟悉的面孔……

2.一个人蜷缩在床上，无法入睡，脑子里想着莫名其妙的问题，黑暗犹如一张巨大的蛛网把你包裹在内，厚厚的棉被里，你感觉好冷 ,从枕头下掏出手机，却发现你不知道该打给谁，于是，无奈的又塞回枕头中 ,你把头缩进被子里，轻轻的抱住自己的膝盖，像一个孩子 把自己抱紧一点，那么，就不会冷了吧……

3.你恨一些人，一些事，甚至恨着这个世界 ,你总是在想，为什么是你 ,为什么承受一切痛苦的都必须是你 ,你只想做一个普普通通的小孩子，开心过完自己的童年，读书，找工作，恋爱……
可是，这么普通的一切，对于你，却如此的难……
你感觉背后似乎有一双眼睛，带着讽刺的笑意看着你
然后，摇摇头，走开了……

4.面对着电脑发呆，身边的咖啡已经渐渐发凉，耳机里绵延出悠扬的音乐声，此时，已是凌晨
你也不知道是什么时候变成这样的，像是一个穴居动物一般，躲在自己的窝里不想出来
什么时候，开始害怕外面的阳光，讨厌出门，面对着门外的那些人，你觉得他们甚至没有你那台冰冷的电脑亲切
有时，虚拟世界，确实要比现实世界美丽……

5.你靠在窗边，透过蒙蒙细雨，静静的看着这个陌生的城市
你不知道要在这里停留多久，你不知道你会遇见什么样的人，不也不知道你会留下怎样的回忆……
点一支烟，烟雾缭绕中，你静静的咪上眼，享受这一刻的寂静
过去的一切就让他这样过去吧，从今开始，你要学会认识陌生的人，做陌生的事，过陌生的生活……
独在异乡为异客……

6.你习惯一个人学校的走道上手插口袋漫步徜徉，没有目标，没有终点，你只是想这样一步一步的走下去，走到自己筋疲力尽为止
你学会在这种只属于一个人的时间里，独自思考着解开一些问题，无论你的结论是对是错，都已经不重要了……
你看着那热闹的操场，嘴角，轻轻上扬着一丝微笑
夕阳下，你的影子拉的好长……

7.你在梦里看到她/他的离开，哭泣着从梦里醒来
看着空荡的房间，你静静的走到洗脸台前
看着镜子里，自己苍白而憔悴的脸
你一瞬间泪流满面……

8.你清晨起床，家中空无一人，你给自己泡了一杯牛奶，呵着暖暖的热气坐在阳台上的沙发里，随手翻开着旁边厚厚的书籍
冬日的阳光懒散而温暖的照在你身上 周围寂静而安详
不知不觉中，你再次睡着，轻声打着呼噜，如同一只懒猫

9.你一直沉醉在回忆里，不愿意醒来
你想起以前和朋友在一起的场面，便会微微发笑
你想起以前的一些窘事，便会微微脸红
你想起以前的一些无奈，便会轻声长叹
你想起了她，便会死死的咬住下唇
你害怕……你会哭出声来……

10.你在酒吧里点一支啤酒，听着震耳欲聋的音乐，看着舞池里扭动着的人群，你漫无表情
冰冷的啤酒从食道一直凉到胃里，你轻声的呻吟…… 然后，随着眩目的灯光，脚轻轻的打着拍子
巴台上，你的背影像是一尊石像……

11.学会不再哭泣，学会不再透露自己的感情，他们说你冷血，你却只是在那里微笑
你知道，没有必要试图让别人了解你
知我者为我分忧，不知我者谓我何求
眼泪解决不了任何问题，只会带来吵闹
很多的事情，我们可以感动，却不能流泪
因为一旦放任自己的感情，怕会让自己泣不成声

12.参加一场聚会，喝很多酒，却一直没有醉倒
咪着一双眼睛看这个世界，光怪而陆离
告诉自己，你喜欢这种感觉
独自去洗脸台，泼了点冷水在脸上，然后看着镜子一个人傻笑
醉后……世界好…美…

13.默默的喜欢上她/他，却不敢玷污这份感情，一直将它默默珍藏，无论她多么的骄横，无论她多么的不讲道理，无论她让你气上多少次，你都一直在让着她
你明白你现在给不了她什么，你明白现实比爱情残酷，你明白，等你能够给她想要的东西时，你才配去爱她……
最后，当你鼓起勇气去找她，去寻觅每一个 。。。

~心灵憔悴~

问问自己负荷得了吗？
我不知道但我希望我的答案是我可以。
我很想问苍天是什么导致我的家变了？
知道吗？有时候我真的很累但我不能不理。。
有时候我累得 很想哭但我不能哭。。
我的部落格曾经是甜美开心的文字，
今天却变成了苦不堪言的日志。。
今年所发生的事情太多太多了。。
最近更是让我快喘不过气了~
人身在外生不由己~
我能做些什么？
能做的我都做了，我只希望我的家人开心。
知道我的心有多痛吗？
每逢接到的电话都让我心淌血，让我的心更痛。
为了家，我舍弃了我的感情世界~
我不想让人和我一起背负这个责任。
但你又做了些什么？一次又一次的伤他们的心。
我比你更累都还没喊累！你还敢说累！
你过我的生活看看，谁更累？！
我所有发生的事都没让他们知道都不想他们为我担心。
你却一次又一次加油添醋说我乐得自在，你想怎样？！
真他X的！不要挑战我的忍耐咯~
老娘可我不是省油的灯！
父母恩大你听过没？告诉你，他们没欠你！
用你的脑想一想！不要这么不近人情，有了爱情忘了亲情~
我快给你逼疯了你懂不懂？
你要不爽你就不要理，不要每天刺激老人家的心~
你可以滚出去做你的少奶奶，这个家再苦，都不会求你！
永远不懂你说的话多伤人。。
真是无药可救了你！

~无形的压力~

最近的胃口好像越来越差了。。
太多的东西需要处理。。
压力是隐形的，却在不知不觉中牵系着你。。
好容易觉得累。。
现在终于懂得背负一个家责任重大，
任何一部都不由得你出差错。
体重日渐下降，日子每天照样过，
只是多了一份担心忧心~

我不会埋怨，但我会反抗。
对的有理的我会接受，
无理取闹的我一定会反，
我不再是以前乖乖听话的小女孩。

小女孩长大了，
学会了扛起一个家，
学会了分辨好坏，
更懂得做人处事~

有时候说不出的苦才是真真的苦。
有时真的很累，累得很想哭，
但绝不能哭，因绝不能让自己倒下。。
有时这种无形的压力，还真不是容易顶得住。。

好想有个港湾给我避一避，歇一歇~
真希望我能快快解决所有问题。。。

~单身的幸福~

曾经我被人问过，你男朋友呢？
而我给的回答是：“散了。。。”
这个答案一出就换来惊讶的眼神。。
“为什么散了？他又做错事了吗？”
不是，选择放弃这段感情不是因为不爱了，而是不能爱了~
是我选择放手，放他自由飞翔，让他更长大。。
很多朋友会以为我因为被伤害过，被背叛过，所以对感情没信心。
多少当然会有恐惧感，但人谁无错？错了才会学着长大。。
有时候学会放手也是一种幸福。
看着他开心，你也会开心。有时候，爱并不一定要拥有。
现在的我，正享受单身的幸福。
我回家，人都问，你怎么还单身？你条件不错啊，是你太挑了吗？
不是我挑，而是我不想牵连任何人。。
回想着自己的处境，不是人人能接受，我更不想为了恋爱而隐瞒我的处境。
我妈曾告诉我，叫我不要让人知道我的处境，免得人人见了我就跑。。
但是我却回她，如果那个人真心爱我，他不会计较，还会和我一起分担。
不能接受我的处境，就不要招惹我。。
所以根本不需要为我担心，我一个人也可以活得很好。。
我还有家人，最温馨的避风港。。
如果不是您，我根本不可能这么独立这么坚强。。
因为您，我学会了很多东西，学会了待人处世，学会忍耐。。
我妈很担心我自己一个人在外工作很辛苦。。
我真的不想您担心，我过得很好，单身的我更自由。
让我有更多时间为这个家努力，奋斗。。
以前的我不会想，认为女生谁不想恋爱？
可是爱过，伤过，痛过。。。更加后悔过。。但能改变什么？
最后只有一个字--痛。
我现在只想解决我家的困境，让我父母安享生活。
我已经没有多出的力去寻找感情的另一半。
我真的不想再见到我吗掉泪，因为心真的很痛。。
所以，不能接受我，就不要招惹我~
请让我有个单身的幸福。。

我知道他们比谁都还心痛，
任谁不想疼爱自己的儿女？
谁不想给儿女好生活？
谁会要自己的女儿背负家的责任？
再忍心，我必须做一次，对于长辈我只能说抱歉我不能接受你们的安排。
我父母我弟我会照顾，我一定会努力让他们脱离这不必要的“债”。。
我妈告诉我她失去了一切，只剩下孩子。。
这一次回家让我见到很多事情，
更让我下定决心的狠一次。。
我不是冷血，更不是不孝，是我不能不这么做。。
所以感情，婚姻现在对我而言。。离我越远越好~

对不起，我怕伤害，更怕自己变得懦弱。。
所以我需要我的单身幸福。。

~Bon Anniversaire~

Happy Birthday to Myself!!!
12th October~
A day to remember and
thanks to my parents~
for bringing ME to this wonderful world!

Gonna have my bday with work dis year~for d pass pass years, my birthday was stick wif exams..
Now, no more exams but with works...how i wish i do not need to work till 10 pm..
but no differents too..every year still d same..
I wish to b with my family for my birthday~
A true wishes from my heart~ wish my family can have a happiest and peaceful life ...

~我们都会错~

我们每个人都有可能犯错，因世上没有人是十全十美的~

可是在犯错后会觉悟，回头还是岸，是可以宽恕的~
感情世界里，没有谁对谁错，双方都必须为言论而负责任。。
所谓一个巴掌拍不响，你不采取任何行动，
对方不会动心，也不会陷入感情里。。
所谓“牛不喝水强按头”，是不肯能会有结果的啊。。
双方都有付出过，也可能曾经彼此吸引过，只不过都在不对的时间里。。
有些时候，我们常听说错的时间遇上对的人只能叹息一场，
我们谁也知道，不可能发生的事永远不会心存希望，
这点任人我们谁都了解~
世上不论是男或女都好，
我们都必须三思后而行，
以为把责任推到在一方，你认为你就是清白的，
那你根本是大错特错~
试问你若没任何反应，会让对方倾心吗？
无需把责任往一个女生身上倒，说过的话难道不需负责任吗？
说不伤害但你已把对方伤的最彻底~~
请扪心自问，按良心说话，谁才是真正错的那一个~
女生曾诺的话都做到，而男生呢？一次一次的伤了女生而不晓得。。
女生却一次又一次的默默保护着男生，换来却是男生无情的怪罪，
将女生的名誉扫地。。。
女生可以很绝，可以狠心将男生对质，可以把男生给指证。。
可是她没有，她认为没必要把事情闹大，因为她认为若要怪，双方都有错。。
感情世界里，没有所谓谁害谁，谁是祸首，因为双方都付出过，
双方都曾插错脚。。这只能说是最美的错误~

听听这首歌，了解它的含义~



anyone of us - gareth gates
我们都会错

i've been letting you down, down我让你失望了
girl i know i've been such a fool我知道自己实在太傻
giving into temptation一时的情不自禁
i should have played it cool让冷静消失无踪
the situation got out of hand如今弄到无法收拾
i hope you understand我只求你能谅解
it can happen to anyone of us这种是可能发生在任何人身上
anyone you think of所有你想得到的人
anyone can fall每个人都会犯错
anyone can hurt someone they love每个人都可能让爱人心痛
hearts will break我的心快碎了
cos i made a stupid mistake因为我犯了愚蠢的错
it can happen to anyone of us这种是可能发生在任何人身上
say you will forgive me说你会原谅我吧
anyone can fail每个人都可能失控
say you will believe me说你会相信我吧
i can't take无法忍受
my heart will break我的心就要碎了
cause i made a stupid mistake只因为我犯了一个愚蠢的错
a stupid mistake一个愚蠢的错
she was kind of exciting那天她看起来很兴奋
a little crazy
i should have known 我早该知道他有点疯狂
she must have altered my senses一定是她影响了我的判断力
as i offered to walk her home因为我竟然提议陪她走路回家
the situation got out of hand如今弄到无法收拾
i hope you understand我只求你能谅解
it can happen to anyone of us这种是可能发生在任何人身上
anyone you think of所有你想得到的人
anyone can fall每个人都会犯错
anyone can hurt someone they love每个人都可能让爱人心痛
hearts will break我的心快碎了
cos i made a stupid mistake因为我犯了愚蠢的错
it can happen to anyone of us这种是可能发生在任何人身上
say you will forgive me说你会原谅我吧
anyone can fail每个人都可能失控
say you will believe me说你会相信我吧
i can't take无法忍受
my heart will break我的心就要碎了
cause i made a stupid mistake只因为我犯了一个愚蠢的错
a stupid mistake一个愚蠢的错
a stupid mistake一个愚蠢的错
a stupid mistake一个愚蠢的错
she means nothing to me她对我没有任何意义
nothing to me没有任何意义
i swear every word is true我发誓句句属实
i don't wanna lose you我不想失去你
the situation got out of hand如今弄到无法收拾
i hope you understand我只求你能谅解
it can happen to anyone of us这种是可能发生在任何人身上
anyone you think of所有你想得到的人
anyone can fall每个人都会犯错
anyone can hurt someone they love每个人都可能让爱人心痛
hearts will break我的心快碎了
cos i made a stupid mistake因为我犯了愚蠢的错
it can happen to anyone of us这种是可能发生在任何人身上
say you will forgive me说你会原谅我吧
anyone can fail每个人都可能失控
say you will believe me说你会相信我吧
i can't take无法忍受
my heart will break我的心就要碎了
cause i made a stupid mistake只因为我犯了一个愚蠢的错
anyone can fall每个人都会犯错
anyone can hurt someone they love每个人都可能让爱人心痛
hearts will break我的心快碎了
cos i made a stupid mistake因为我犯了愚蠢的错
a stupid mistake一个愚蠢的错

~真的好累！想休息了~

如果长相是个关键，我情愿我是个男的而不是女的，
我真的从没玩弄任何人，任何一段感情。。
每一个朋友，我都以心相待，我问心无愧~
嘴是人的，爱怎么说随他去，我真的很累去理会。。
原以为可以简单生活，但事与人违，它就是不让你简单过活~
我以尽量避免一切事情发生，我没去招蜂惹蝶~
对于一切的误会，我只能说声抱歉，对不起，我无心犯罪~
或许我的言语举动容易让人误会，我真的不是故意的~
我真的很抱歉若我真的伤了任何一个。。
不懂我的人，请你们停止你们那幼稚的游戏，
你们不是我，根本不了解我的处境，
如果不能放你在我立场而想，就请你们闭上你们的嘴，
不要玩这种幼稚的游戏。。
我现在根本没时间陪你们玩。。
我说过我并不好惹，不是我不会生气，不是我玩不起，
很多时候，可以选择，我选择笑看人生，以微笑面对，将事化小~
如果我要狠，我可以奉陪你到底！不要逼我，我真的不想~
现在也没那闲时间去理你。。
你若有脑思考，我只是个女生，我有多大威力，可是我的故事谁人能了解~
很多人只会把它当笑柄，如果你是我，你肯定懂得什么叫痛~
在你不能了解任何处境，不能放你角度在别人立场为他人而想时，
请停止所有一切幼稚的举动，除非你唯恐天下不乱~
我不介意你要为我塑造怎样的形象，因我真的很累！
我根本没力和你玩游戏！
我没那么大的能耐可以把人玩弄于鼓掌之中！
我真心期望时间会是最好的解药，能淡忘一切~
我只要一个简单快乐的生活，美好的回忆~
难道这样很难吗？我一定要犯小人吗？
走到天涯海角都免不了吗？老天一定要这样对我吗？
给我这样的考验~

因为痛过，所以学会成长，因为挑战，让我变得更坚强~
因为人生，让我学会微笑，因为责任，让我学会体谅~

人都会犯错，只要知错能改，回头是岸~
佛曾说过学会宽恕，原谅他人等于善待自己~
静坐思己过~ 没有人是万能，更没人是绝对的~

我是真的累了，累得快倒了，我很想休息了~
这一生我过得很累~ 笑得更累~

~对不起~

对不起！
我知道我伤了你~
我知道我的决定好狠心，但我没得选择~
我希望这对我们都会好~
我很感谢你给我的所有美好记忆~
那会是最美好的回忆。。
我真的很开心拥有这些美好回忆。。
谢谢你给我所有的付出~
对我所有的好我真的很珍惜~
伤了你我真的很对不起！
我也不想~

只能祝福你！
我们一起努力~

~爱上了不该爱的人~

阿木 - 不该爱的人

爱到深处 才说并不适合
有了我你却更寂寞
付出太多 换回什么
泪水是唯一的收获
想要解脱 情却像个漩涡
在分与不分之间受尽折磨
明知这是一个错
我还是一错再错
只剩半句承诺 剩我一人执着
无缘的人无缘的疼无缘的伤痕
最爱的人偏偏却是不该爱的人
无心的人无心的魂无心的吻
最爱的人偏偏却是不懂爱的人

想要解脱 情却像个漩涡
在分与不分之间受尽折磨
明知这是一个错
我还是一错再错
只剩半句承诺 剩我一人执着
无缘的人无缘的疼无缘的伤痕
最爱的人偏偏却是不该爱的人
无心的人无心的魂无心的吻
最爱的人偏偏却是不懂爱的人

无缘的人无缘的疼无缘的伤痕
最爱的人偏偏却是不该爱的人
无心的人无心的魂无心的吻
最爱的人偏偏却是不爱我的人

爱上了一个不该爱的人只会让自己更痛苦更累，可是有时候明明知道是个错误却又把自己陷阱去。爱你的人却不是你爱的人，你爱的人却又不爱你，这种复杂心情是最累的。。
谁又可以去控制着一切呢？
原以为自己可以控制，但偏偏失控了也不晓得~
有些时候，自己付出了感情也不晓得。。
往往都是后知后觉。。
有时会心寒，但又能怎么样？
只能静静的学习放开一切~
不让自己受伤害~
曾经有人问我，如果同一时间有2个人喜欢上你，而这两个人你也喜欢其中一个，但另一个对你更是费尽心思，你会选择哪一个？
我给他的答案是我选择我自己，我谁也不选。
选择任何一个都会伤了另一个，我情愿自己承受也不愿任何人为了我而受伤害。。
我只能说我们都在错的时间爱上了不该爱的人。。

~家~

人的思想总会随着时间变得更成熟，所看的东西也会不同，因会看得更远更辽阔~
但有些却会随着岁月增长变得更依赖，不能自我。。
总觉得，长大了就该学会独立，学习如何支撑一个家。。
无论男女，家人永远是最亲的，家人有难，帮忙是天经地义的事。。
以前可以得以原谅因我们都还没踏出社会，仍让懵懂无知得像小孩一样。
现今，在有能力可以帮忙的时候，请尽能力帮忙，不要有任何埋怨。。
我们都已经长大了，不再是小孩，不应该让父母再劳碌奔波。。
切记，父母永远不亏欠我们什么，而是我们欠他们太多太多了。。
作为孩子的，为父母分担是我们的责任~
没能陪在他们身边已是我最大的遗憾，家中就只剩你们陪伴他们。
你应该比我幸福得多，因可以和家人生活一起。。
我能做的也只能通过电话聊聊天，再看他们需要什么帮助，
我除了金钱上给予支持，我也不懂我还能做什么。。
至少这可以帮忙减轻家里的负担，虽说不是很多，但至少尽力了。。
接到妈妈的电话时，妈妈都会诉苦~可想而知，她是多么心疼，请不要和她怄气了。。
怎么说她也把我们抚养成人，把我们管教得很好。。
她不欠我们任何东西，我想不通什么事可以让你360大转变~
常说父母偏心，最偏心的，最疼的还是你。。你永远不会知道！
不是他们不骂我而是根本没这个机会，想想看我从中学就鲜少在家，
毕业了就到西马读书，也很少回家，我一直就这样的学习着独立，
因为我知道我必须独立，不让他们有太多的担心~
大约毕业了，我又继续在这里工作，完全没有时间能回家~
为什么你就不能把握在家陪伴家人的机会呢？
为什么要这样上他们的心呢？
你之前的承诺呢？我们一起说过要让他们享福的不是吗？
你知道弟弟又多心碎吗？一向来家里从很少会有人跟我过问我的一切~
老弟也很少会粘我~ 我和他说的，承诺他的，我都会想办法实现~
他脸上是一脸失望的样子，就因你从没守诺言！
你很忍心！钱财这么重要吗？家没跟你要半分钱耶~
我可以学习长大，你以前每次骂我很任性，
我承认，我以前是很任性。。但在发生很多事后，人都学会成长~
那所谓的任性只因我还是小孩，想被家人疼爱多一点~
但现在，你我都知道，我们不再是小孩了~
我可以改变，为什么你不可以？
你永远不会知道，也没看见我带他们出去逛街，
那是我第一次看到他们发自内心笑得最开心的日子，
他们都说了一些让我很心酸的话，
他们说我们终于毕业了，也做工了，这是他们一直想见的。。
他们也希望可以有人依靠，而他们的依靠就是我们~
所以现在的我，不是以前的那个我~
我说过有什么事就找我，我能做到的我一定会做..
能把握的，珍惜的，请不要轻易让它流失，
总有一天你会因为你的举动而后悔的~